I have a problem of holding things in and feeling no feelings so that when little things go wrong it makes me have breakdowns.
Like yesterday, I had a breakdown in the supermarket parking lot because I couldn’t find the type of bread I wanted anywhere in town. Other times, and most of the time it will be things like not being able to get my food the way I want it at fast food restaurants. Or my food coming out wrong.
It’s always when some little things happen all in a row and finally I just can’t handle it anymore. It causes pain and crying and not being able to function or be okay for a long time.
There is a little bit of something good that comes from this, it always makes me cry myself to sleep and I get one good night of sleep in my bundle of really bad ones.