Today was a pretty good day. Well I mean Nothing particularly bad happened. But even the little good things that happened weren’t enough to bring me out of this funk.
This is one reason I know that this feeling is complete and utter depression and not just being sad.
I’m having money problems and health problems and today some of my money problems were worked out and I felt nothing. No relief or anything. I know this is a huge contribution to my stress but solving the problem didn’t seem to make me feel any less depressed.
So how can you enjoy those days where nothing in particular goes wrong, or even the days where good things happen but you are still depressed?
I think this is why I often can’t get out of bed to go to work, even knowing a bad thing could happen like getting fired- I still can’t help the pull of wanting to lay in bed alone all day.
How can laying alone in bed all day be more satisfying that having good things happen to you? I feel like this is not normal and I don’t know what to do about it. I get no joy out of anything and everything is a struggle. And even when things aren’t a struggle I’m still depressed.
How do you break the cycle?